Do you want to learn some things about me? When I was like 11/12, I really wanted to move to Berkeley, CA when I turned 18. So much that I researched all about it, and set my clocks to Pacific Time so I’d be adjusted, and all that.

Then when I was 13/14, I wanted to go to this college program where essentially you went to college and got a Bachelor’s degree in the time when you normally would have been in high school. I would have still lived in the same state, but several hours away and in dorms. I decided not to go, only because I got into my first choice high school (which essentially ruined my life, but that’s another story entirely).

Then throughout high school, I planned to go to an out-of-state school so I could get out of my house, and away from my parents and anyone who knew me, and essentially “start fresh” in a new place.

Now I’m too mentally ill, and not in a good enough place in my recovery/essentially have given up on trying to recover, so I can’t leave my town. I’m going to the college that I’m technically already a student at (because of Dual Enrollment). Literally, parts of their campus are within about 2-3 blocks of my high school. I can’t even live in the dorms because I’m too fucked up and everyone is afraid that I’d either kill myself or get even worse in my behaviors than I already am, and my anxiety is too bad to handle living that close to other people who I don’t know.

In short, mental illness is ruining my life and making my hopes/plans unachievable :))))

(via anymahoo)

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  • 1: Name
  • 2: Age
  • 3: 3 Fears
  • 4: 3 things I love
  • 5: 4 turns on
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  • 7: My best friend
  • 8: Sexual orientation
  • 9: My best first date
  • 10: How tall am I
  • 11: What do I miss
  • 12: What time were I born
  • 13: Favourite color
  • 14: Do I have a crush
  • 15: Favourite quote
  • 16: Favourite place
  • 17: Favourite food
  • 18: Do I use sarcasm
  • 19: What am I listening to right now
  • 20: First thing I notice in new person
  • 21: Shoe size
  • 22: Eye color
  • 23: Hair color
  • 24: Favourite style of clothing
  • 25: Ever done a prank call?
  • 27: Meaning behind my URL
  • 28: Favourite movie
  • 29: Favourite song
  • 30: Favourite band
  • 31: How I feel right now
  • 32: Someone I love
  • 33: My current relationship status
  • 34: My relationship with my parents
  • 35: Favourite holiday
  • 36: Tattoos and piercing i have
  • 37: Tattoos and piercing i want
  • 38: The reason I joined Tumblr
  • 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
  • 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
  • 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
  • 42: When did I last hold hands?
  • 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
  • 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?
  • 45: Where am I right now?
  • 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
  • 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
  • 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
  • 49: Am I excited for anything?
  • 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
  • 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
  • 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
  • 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
  • 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
  • 55: What is something I disliked about today?
  • 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
  • 57: What do I think about most?
  • 58: What’s my strangest talent?
  • 59: Do I have any strange phobias?
  • 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
  • 61: What was the last lie I told?
  • 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
  • 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
  • 64: Do I believe in magic?
  • 65: Do I believe in luck?
  • 66: What's the weather like right now?
  • 67: What was the last book I've read?
  • 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
  • 69: Do I have any nicknames?
  • 70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?
  • 71: Do I spend money or save it?
  • 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?
  • 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?
  • 74: Favourite animal?
  • 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
  • 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
  • 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
  • 78: How can you win my heart?
  • 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
  • 80: What is my favorite word?
  • 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
  • 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
  • 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
  • 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
  • 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
  • 86: What is my current desktop picture?
  • 87: Had sex?
  • 88: Bought condoms?
  • 89: Gotten pregnant?
  • 90: Failed a class?
  • 91: Kissed a boy?
  • 92: Kissed a girl?
  • 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
  • 94: Had job?
  • 95: Left the house without my wallet?
  • 96: Bullied someone on the internet?
  • 97: Had sex in public?
  • 98: Played on a sports team?
  • 99: Smoked weed?
  • 100: Did drugs?
  • 101: Smoked cigarettes?
  • 102: Drank alcohol?
  • 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
  • 104: Been overweight?
  • 105: Been underweight?
  • 106: Been to a wedding?
  • 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
  • 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
  • 109: Been outside my home country?
  • 110: Gotten my heart broken?
  • 111: Been to a professional sports game?
  • 112: Broken a bone?
  • 113: Cut myself?
  • 114: Been to prom?
  • 115: Been in airplane?
  • 116: Fly by helicopter?
  • 117: What concerts have I been to?
  • 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
  • 119: Learned another language?
  • 120: Wore make up?
  • 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
  • 122: Had oral sex?
  • 123: Dyed my hair?
  • 124: Voted in a presidential election?
  • 125: Rode in an ambulance?
  • 126: Had a surgery?
  • 127: Met someone famous?
  • 128: Stalked someone on a social network?
  • 129: Peed outside?
  • 130: Been fishing?
  • 131: Helped with charity?
  • 132: Been rejected by a crush?
  • 133: Broken a mirror?
  • 134: What do I want for birthday?
  • 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
  • 136: Was I named after anyone?
  • 137: Do I like my handwriting?
  • 138: What was my favourite toy as a child?
  • 139: Favourite Tv Show?
  • 140: Where do I want to live when older?
  • 141: Play any musical instrument?
  • 142: One of my scars, how did I get it?
  • 143: Favourite pizza toping?
  • 144: Am I afraid of the dark?
  • 145: Am I afraid of heights?
  • 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
  • 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
  • 148: What I'm really bad at
  • 149: What my greatest achievments are
  • 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me
  • 151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery
  • 152: What do I like about myself
  • 153: My closest Tumblr friend
  • 154: Any question you'd like?

Reenactment of my entire drive home